Friday, November 18, 2011 9:38 AM
Hello People.
I've decided to start blogging again and this time, I'm reopening my blog.
I'm not really sure of how to start off my post, because I'm sort of angry and confused now.
You see, the thing is, someone approached me and said that she needed help in changing herself. This person, for as far as I've known, has lied to me for my entire life. She pleaded with me, until I finally gave in to tell her what was exactly wrong with her.
I took the time to elaborate on why people were not trusting her, and how the things she had done were not right. For example, She shouldn't be meeting a online friend she barely knew for 2 weeks, along with a stranger, let alone give them her number. What kind of trouble are you trying to get get yourself into? Don't give me some bullshit about how your online friend wants to introduce you to another person, or wants you to introduce more friends to her. You just made yourself sound very cheap. This is Singapore. Not some adult friend finder thing.
And the funny thing was, you claimed that you needed my help in changing. I honestly wanted to help you, despite all your lies. But you still lied. You gave me some crap about how you didn't want me to know that you did something like this becasue I would feel frusstrated and all. But tell me, how am I supposed to help you if you do not even want to confide in me?
All the things you said that night, about wanting to change and all, it was all just rubbish. If you'd really liked to change, you wouldn't do this to
yourself. Sure, I'm pretty mad at the fact that you lied to me,
again, but I'm more disappointed at the way you potraited yourself. You've really let down yourself.
So as I heard you come up with excuses on the phone, I really gave up. I could predict whatever you were about to say, the reasons you did such a thing. I guess after a year and three months, I knew you inside out.
I then decided to cut all contacts with you. No more text, calls, facebook or anything. I never ever want to see you, or anything related to you again. You really made me feel like a fool.
To trust you over and over again, only to be lied to, only to be used.
I guess I deserved this though, all my friends had told me to give up on you. But I guess I just thought that you actually had the will to change.
You will never change.
I'm pretty sure that you'll go around spreading stories about how I chose to give up on you and all, and you'll probably try to make me sound like some badass person. It's just so typically you to put the blame on others. But you know what?
Behind whatever you've said, you, yourself would know of whether they're lies or not.
You're on your own now.
Signing off,
Natalie Ishot