Tuesday, December 20, 2011 9:51 PM
Define Happiness.
To others, happiness might be wealth, health, or any other thing that they can possess. Everyone has a different definition of happiness, and I make no exception.
Steve once asked me what my goal was, and I remembered answering,
"To have a happy family."
Relationships between my family are so straining, especially whatever that's going on between me and my dad. Everyday, we go through different obstacles, and sometimes, I just feel like giving up on ever salvaging our relationship.
That's the reason of why I wanted to have a happy family, cause, it's just so difficult to feel happy when I'm with my dad.
He can make things so difficult at times. True enough, mummy doesn't come from a family that is well to do, and her siblings aren't highly educated either. But why does he have to restrain me from seeing my cousins, just because of these reasons? I rarely get to go to my cousin's house, and by being able to sleepover at their house today, I feel true happiness already.
Daddy, can't you see that wealth does not matter when there is love?
I love my cousins so much, because honestly, they're the most caring people in my entire life. They fork out money just to buy me birthday presents, their entire family squeezes into a little old tiny car just to visit me during the new year, and when I'm sick, all of them would shower me with texts, loaded with love and wishes.
What is happiness? To me, happiness is when my cousin just shoved a tub of half eaten island creamery ice cream in front of me, and telling me to finish it up, since I loved ice cream.
Happiness is when we sit on the sofa together, planning our ice skating trip on Thursday, when none of us knew how to skate.
Happiness is when my aunty buys so many things from the market, just to make my favorite dishes.
Happiness is when my cousin decides to download MapleStory into his computer for me before I came to his house, because he knew that I was a gamer.
These simple things, they make me so happy, dad. If only you could feel the love we've shared, you'll never look down on them again. Even if they're poor, they still stand up for each other, and they're there for each other when times are hard. The love that they give each other simply knows no boundaries.
So, I'm just gonna rephrase my goal a little, and now, my goal is,
"To have a happy family like my cousins do."
And daddy, someday, I'm sure that you'll understand this. I'm sure of it!
Thanks for letting me sleepover with them anyway, it really surprised me. I love you okay, I do, no matter what I say and do.
So..
I went out with Hans today to watch Mission Impossible: Ghost Protocol.
Before that, we had Brunch at Burger King
I had the fish burger, he had some weird turkey burger with tea. We shared ghost stories, and it was just terribly funny to see the way he shudders when I told him mine. His imagination is just so wild, that it makes me speechless.
We also came to a point where we had nothing to do while waiting for the movie to start. So, we began stalking random people on facebook and passing silly comments.
We also Whatsapp-ed with my dearest Assist Team, haha! (:
Oh and Hans, please change the group name back to The Super Assist Team please. A- Team sounds so weird now! ):
Back to the topic.
Anyway, after watching the show, Hans couldn't stop talking about how he wanted to be Tom Cruise and do cool stunts, have cool rides, technology and all.
Imagine poor Natalie, nodding her head at whatever Mission Impossible fantasies he talks about, all the way until the bus stop.
We were supposed to eat at Udders after the movie, but he complained that he was too full.
Sad much, my ice creaaam!
He then went home to pack his stuff for his flight tomorrow, while I went to my cousin's house shortly after. (:
OH, and I'm down with viral cough. I'm not supposed to eat ice cream, but I guess just a little wouldn't hurt.
Well, I guess.
Haha! (:
I'm totally looking forward to the 24th, I miss my Assist Team so so much!
I love you guys to the max, stay cheerful always!
Love,
Natalie Ishot
