Wednesday, December 21, 2011 3:10 PM
Do you remember when you said that we were forever?
Good afternoon earthlings, it's Martian Natalie Ishot here.
Why Martian? Because yours truly does not know what 'Funshion' is, and does not listen to the song 'Rolling In The Deep' By Adele.
If there are any other Martians here, please let me know, so that I'll know that I'm not alone.
Anyway, today I dreamt of my ex. I dreamt of him telling me that we'll last forever, and that we'll make it through everything. I also dreamt of the time he came to my house, just to learn how to bake cookies, and the time where I stayed up till 11PM just to bake him a cake.
I didn't feel sad at all when I woke up. Instead, I just started thinking about us.
Like, whatever happened to the love that we've developed throughout the months? Whatever happened to the excitement of seeing each other, even If it was for just the briefest moment?
I spent like 10 minutes frying my brains, of trying to understand what exactly happened to us.
I always knew that you had a bad temper and a crazy, fiery attitude that came with it. Yet, when we first started, you never ever showed it to me, and you kept it all under control. But gradually, it just went out of control, to the extent where I felt afraid of you. Hmm. Despite that fact, I stayed on because I just simply loved you, and I believed that you would change.
Then along the way, you just had to fall for someone else. I totally remember the nights I spent crying on the phone, as you spilled the beans on how you fell for that girl in your class, and for how you didn't love me anymore.
It's funny how fleeting a person's feelings can be these days.
In a relationship, it takes two hands to clap. Both parties must make an effort to keep the spark between them alive, and constantly find ways to renew it.
"We just drifted apart." would never be a good enough excuse for anyone to end a relationship.
Everything happens for a reason. Drifting apart simply means not making an effort to find out about about each other's lives anymore, and not making the effort to understand each other. Like hello, you're not logs in the river that just drift everywhere so freely.
Anyway, I just wanna thank my ex for everything that has happened for the past 1 Year and 3 Months. After the break-up, I've just been feeling so angry and unhappy about it that I've totally forgotten about the sweet moments we had.
I still remember when you used to fetch me from school everyday, treat me to Seoul Garden, and spent my birthday with me at Wild Wild Wet, just because I wanted to feel what it would be like to go WWW with my boyfriend. I'm thankful for your patience with my childish nature, the Natalie whom loves playing on swings, the Natalie whom loves video games, the Natalie whom constantly needs to win an argument just to prove the smallest point.
Thank you for the break up, because I've grown more matured after that. Thank you for the break up, because I've learnt to be more independent. Thank you for the break up, because I've grown stronger.
Recently, I've heard about so many nasty things that you've said to others about me. I don't hate you for these, because i know that deep down, what you've said isn't true.
I sincerely hope that you'd change your attitude and temper, and stop lying. I hope that one day, you'll see through this break up and learn from it like I've did. Don't take anyone else for granted, and stop playing with people's feelings. You'll end up hurting yourself most, trust me.
Don't find anymore excuses. Instead, find a way to carve out your future.
Join Mindchamps or something for god's sake.
I'm feeling kind of hungry now, so I'm gonna stop blogging and eat. My Whatsapp is pestering me to look at it too.
Goodbye blog,
H.E.L.L.O to F.O.O.D!
Damn hungry now,
Natalie Ishot
