Sunday, January 29, 2012 9:22 AM
What hurts the most was being so close.
Hello earthlings.
Just had a haircut yesterday, I think my fringe looks weird now, cause apparently, the hairstylist wanted to make me look like a Korean pop star without my permission. Aye, I'm happy with being Natalie Ishot, I don't want to be some Korean star wannabe. But oh well, it'd grow back.
I dyed my hair, it's colour is Mocha Orange, it looks natural on me, I love it, but I kinda miss my super black hair now, end of story.
Pictures below were after I've dyed my hair, but before the haircut.
Now to what I wanna talk about today.
Why does this even fucking feel like a break up when we're not even together?
Why do I feel like a part of me has been taken away, and right now, I'm here, feeling so empty?
I wish that you'd understand of how I'm feeling. You say that you've seen the clearest picture, but really, love, it's not like that. It's not.
Sigh.
You're probably asleep. I hope that your cough and flu is getting better.
I'm tired.
Reading the texts you've sent, over and over again, with a heavy heart, hoping that you'd see what I'm trying to say, because you've got it wrong.
It was never, ever, a conclusion.
I wish you were here. I wish you were here to just embrace me in your arms, and just tell me that everything's gonna be alright.
But, if this is the only way you'll ever be able to figure out your feelings, then so be it. Friends.
Maybe, I need to learn to be independent as well. I need to learn to solve my own problems, before I can even help anyone else.
Xe, have a safe trip. I'll see you soon.
I love you.
Love,
Natalie Ishot