Today's group outing turned out surprisingly well.

Hmm, met them at Somerset MRT, with a total of 17 people.

Recognized Rayne, Jasmine, Jiajun and of course, Jungwei. Tall much. Tsk.

Well, GhostRider 2 was definitely a disappointment, and I'm sad to say, that Nicholas Cage is ageing.



Still hot though. Green eyes.

In my opinion, he acted best in The Wicker Man. I'd never forget that movie, the only english horror movie that scared the shit out of me.



Dinner was settled at Cine's foodcourt. Had pepper lunch, Chicken pepper rice with cheese.

We then headed off to Woodlands to pool, and yes, I still suck at it. It didn;'t help much with all the pressure. Luckily, there was Jungwei in my team to help. Heh.

Bus-ed home with YiHong and Jungwei, My stop was the nearest one! Reached home at 11PM (:

Overall, I hope to see them again, enough said.

Wondering if I should go out tomorrow.

Goodnight, world.

Love,
Natalie Ishot




Don't tell me that I'm different from all the other girls. That makes you the same like every other guy.

Hello.

Work was really entertaining today. Brought my cookies to work for Kenneth, and all of them said that it tasted good. I'm glad that everyone liked it! (: Isaac was at work today too, but I guess, FnB's really not his thing. So he's quiting already.

Anyway, my cookies inspired Kenneth to try out baking too. We used the brown sugar, flour and butter from the shop. I gave him the basic recipe, and the first cookies we made were Oreo Cookies. It was acceptable, considering the fact that the oven in the shop was made for baking only nuggets. There weren't any temperature knobs at all. The second batch of cookies we made were chocholate chip cookies, followed by strawberry cookies. The strawberry cookies tasted really bland, and I made a mistake of adding milk into the dough too. It became scones. Silly much.

The last batch of cookies were invented by Kenneth himself, Nutella cookies. Haha! (: They tasted good, somehow.

Closed the shop at 9:15PM, and Kenneth decided to go home with me via MRT, instead of the usual bus! We didn't get to sit together though, the train was too crowded, and I had to sit beside this army boy. He really stank.

Hid my head behind my bag during the whole trip, and I eventually fell asleep.

Woke up from my phone's vibration, with a text from Kenneth saying 'Nat wake up wake up'. Haha! Turns out We've reached Jurong East, and I had to alight to catch the other train.

Bus-ed home, and here I am, all washed up and clean. (:

There's a group outing tomorrow, followed by Shermaine's Chalet. Imma turn in and rest.

Today, was beautiful.

Love,
Natalie Ishot




LIAR.

So, it's 12:44AM and I'm having cramps. Again.

Anyway, I can't sleep, so I might as well blog today.

I went to Westmall today, and bought ingredients needed to bake my cookies.

Yes. I baked. Today. After 3 months.

Total cost of the ingredients was $25, costly much. Tsk. But it was worth it, the cookies turned out awesome, <3 data-blogger-escaped-.="." data-blogger-escaped-br="br">
Was stuck in the kitchen for 3-4 hours, and just in case you're curious, I made Raisin oatmeal cookies, with hazelnuts.





I know right. You're drooling already. Haha! (: Made 5 batches, 70 over cookies. I'm so drained.

That's all for today!

let's move on to the next topic.

Lies

If you haven't told a lie ever since you were born, you're probably not normal, or you're lying. Everyone lies. I tell lies too.

We lie for many reasons. But whatever the reason, a lie always hurts. Mmhmm, you heard me. Even the most innocent of lies, the white lies, they hurt.



Those lies, they might be beneficial to you, and they might help you to achieve what you want. But once they've been discovered, the person you've lied to would hurt the most. All the trust they had in you, crushed, in those few seconds. And I'm telling you, it aint easy to gain that trust back.

But you know what? I think, that the most disappointing lies of all, are lies that you tell yourself. And I'm guilty of that.




Sometimes, things go so wrong, but I'd still press on, and convince myself that I can head on. But no. I can't. I'd fake a smile, I'd say I'm okay when I'm not, I'd deny that I'm having a bad day. But deep down inside, in my mind, I struggle so much, and it kills.

People come to me when they have problems, or when they need a listening ear. I'm expected to help them because I can, I'll be there for them because I know that they need me. But wait, Who then, am I supposed to turn to when I need someone?

I've got my own set of problems too, I've got my own set of worries. And the thing about me is, I always think that I am strong enough to handle everything by myself, when I'm clearly not. And when I reach breaking point, I literally shatter.



Natalie, you're not supergirl. You're a bloody human. Stop lying to yourself, and stop pretending that everything's okay when it's not.

Take a break from everything else, you need it.



Fuck those cramps, I'm not okay, but I'm sure as hell gonna sleep.

You can pretend. But till when?

Love,
Natalie Ishot






I honestly don't know what's on your mind.

So. I've just ended work, and again, Gabriel sprayed water all over my legs. When it was freezing cold. THANKS GABRIEL.

Anyway. I'm not exactly in the best of moods now.

Not sure of what's wrong, but Xe's unhappy. So, I am too.

Well, work was fun today!

For a start, we tried making this milky thing that KOI and GongCha add to their Matcha drinks. We then added it into greentea and winter melon tea. It tasted good, but the winter melon's taste kinda over powered it.

Later on, I then had this sudden urge to dip my strawberry into Nutella after dinner. Speaking of which, thanks Kenneth, for the treat. AGAIN.

When I told Kenneth of my idea, he then stood up, and went like,

"Why don't we just make chocolate fondue?"

My eyes lit up. Instantly.

Anyway, Fondue was made with Nutella and Canola oil, over the pan.

And I loved it.

This guy's a genius.

Potato omelettes to chocolate fondue.

Well, I feel guilty though. It's like chocolate overload now.

And, Xe's going to england in April, for years.

Mmhmm.

Well.

I'm signing off.

Love,
Natalie Ishot




Those moments where you laugh so hard, it seems like you're having an asthma attack.

Okay. I slept at 3AM yesterday, and woke up at 12PM today.

I could be sleeping way earlier, but Gabriel just wanted to play AuditionSEA so much, I had to play with him.

Work was 12PM-10PM yesterday, and it was a whole lot of fun.

Why would I say so? Well, when you have a colleague that disturbs you the whole time when you're working, it's kinda difficult to not smile and laugh. For an instance, what kind of person would catch a cockroach, and try to feed it to you EVERY SINGLE TIME.



And for every damn mistake you make, no matter how small, he calls you a retard playfully, and when you retaliate, he says so much rubbish, it fills the entire shop.

Oh. And he pronounces chocolate in chinese as Chocoli. Seriously? I swear, it was stuck in my mind for the whole day.

Anyway, work was fun. Period.

Met Chia after work for a short while. I've got a free Mcflurry from him. Thanks Chia! (: He never grow taller though, tsk. Eat more la Chia! I tihnk he's coming down to Bugis to eat a crepe today! Haha (:

Well, let's end off this short post with a laugh. I just scared the shit out of my sister while she was preparing cup noodles. She jumped and scream, and now she has the cup noodle's seasoning all over her face and body.



It's time for work, I shall get my butt off the chair, and sign off now.

Xe, cool and hot beans, check it out.

Love,
Natalie Ishot




Some times, It's better to let things go, even if it'd hurt like hell.

Hello Earthlings.

I've been feeling terribly lazy to blog for these few days, but the guilt finally caught up with me and.. Well, I'm blogging now, ain't I!

Let's start with Monday, 13th Febuary.

Caroline, Isabelle, Gabriel and I went out to celebrate Kenneth's 25th Birthday. We met at Somerset 313, and then proceeded to Cineleisure to KBOX. It was a hell load of fun, especially when Kenneth and Gabriel tried to pitch the super high notes. He sounds horrendous, but it was pretty funny. After KBOX-ing, the birthday boy then treated us to dinner, and went to meet his other friends, while Isabelle went home. The rest of us then decided to chill at Starbucks. Wwe didn't talk much though, we spent the whole time using our phones, tsk. Went home after that. You know what? I think I wanna do this again soon. Thanks Kenneth, for the dinner treat!

And today, I had work for 10 hours straight. And I'm working the night shift all the way till Sunday, tired much. Definitely not looking forward to it. I had fun during work though. Kenneth tried to replicate the Japanese Rosti he ate during his birthday celbration on friday, and it was a total fail.

Just in case you guys don't know what a Rostie is, It's an appetizer made out of potatoes. It looks like this.



I tried making it too, it came out as french fries, asian style. But it tasted good anyway, haha! (:

Kenneth then used the remaining potato strips to make an omelette. That was my dinner. Potatoes.

And I'm not going to eat potatoes for a month.

Recently got into contact with Gregory, and this guy simply changed so much after 2 years. And it was for the better. More self-esteem, and hes's simply hilarious. He's currently studying for his exams now, so I hope that he'll do well! (:

I guess that's all for tonight, though there are some things that I'm looking forward to

1. Shermaine's Birthday Chalet on the 24th. The chalet that I took an off day for, but have no one to go with. And the only people that I know is Shermaine herself, and Adeline.

2. Guitar Class On Sunday.

3. Meeting Chiaaaaa.

And I'm hereby signing off, with Adele's Rolling In The Deep stuck in my head.

Goodnight, world.

We could have had it all.

Love,
Natalie Ishot





Hi. My name is Natalie. I'm a girl. I have a temper. I have my moodswings. I've loved and been hurt before, but I still keep loving. I laugh a lot, even if there's no reason to it. But mostly, I'm just crazy.

Hello Earthlings!

I'm feeling kinda hyped up today, but I'm going to turn in soon anyway, it's for my own good. Good girl Natalie, good girl.

Anyway, I had work today, and it was pretty tiring! Bonded a lot with Isabelle though, I really like her. She's just so cute.

I wore the green Spongebob tee to work today, So Imma walking spongebob. A talking walking green spongebob that makes crepes. Cool much.

But I love being weird. I love being mad. I love being retarded and all crazy. It keeps me smiling, cause I know that I'm being me, I'm being real.



So, Yea.

Looking forward to tomorrow, it's when guitar class starts, and in addition, I'm meeting Bestie tomorrow! <3 data-blogger-escaped-br="br">
Hmm. Ned's Crepes are hiring, Calvin and Isaac's gonna join me at work soon! Exciting much.

I guess, that's all for today, I'm gonna turn in and have crazy dreams now.

Goodnight, world.



Oh, and f*ck you very much for using me.

Love,
Natalie Ishot




Don't give me all your bullshit, thanks.

Good morning to 1:25AM!

Well, today's been a really busy day at work, and to start it off, Kenneth was in a bad mood. I came into the shop, only to see how pissed off he was. He didn't even said hi! He even said things like,

"Can you please ask the customer to go away? We're closing the shop. Just ask them to stop buying."

It was only 2:30PM, and the shop closes at 9:30PM.

I couldn't help but keep laughing at the nonsense he said angrily. Eventually, my uncontrollable laughter got the best of him, and he cooled down to laugh with me too. I'm glad he feels better!

In the mean time, I think that I'd better go and sleep. There's work tomorrow!

Came online at 11:15PM, Xe wasn't online. I guess he was sleeping.

Well, goodnight earthlings.

Ice Cream Dreams.

Love,
Natalie Ishot




It's her confidence that makes her beautiful, not her looks.

So. It's 1AM in the morning, and while I was browsing through song covers on Youtube, I chanced upon a video of a girl, asking YouTubers for opinions on her looks.

I know, I know. I too, wondered on how searching for covers of 'It Girl' By Jason Derulo, can lead me to this totally irrelevant video.

BUT anyway, curiosity got the better of me, and hence, I decided to watch it. In this video, this girl starts showing million and millions of pictures of herself, and asking for comments on each and everyone of them. She then elaborates on how people call her ugly, and thus, the need of knowing other people's opinions on her looks came about.

Well, she looked sweet.

But her low self-esteem annoyed the sh*t out of me, and after about 20 seconds of her whining, she immediately became ugly to me. I started looking at her flaws that she pointed out, pimple here, hair messy there, so on and so forth.

I no longer saw the sweet looking girl in the video at 0:01.

And then, it struck me.

Looks don't matter at all, it's your confidence that makes you attractive.

Who in the world would like a person, whom brings him/herself down at every chance they get? It's stupid, It's annoying, Stop it.

You can be a average looking person, but if you carry yourself well, people will definitely be attracted to you. Your confidence makes you hot.

It's funny how we react to praises.

For example,

Person 1: You're so pretty!

Person 2: No, I'm not pretty, you're prettier!

Sounds familiar, yes?

It's funny how we reject compliments, and instead, choose to bring ourselves down.

When someone compliments you, he/she definitely liked what they saw, and decided to tell you about it. So don't reject the compliment, take it, believe it, and say thank you.

No, I'm not asking you to be over confident, and start self praising, but I'm trying to tell you, to start having a little faith in yourself, love yourself for whom you are, and stop caring so much about others' opinions. No one's perfect, and no one will ever be.



Stop pointing out your flaws, start loving yourself, and people will start loving you for whom you are.

And this brings whatever I've wanted to blog about for tonight.

AND YES, this too, applies to the people on facebook whom whines everyday about them being single on Valentine's Day, because they are forever alone and etc.

Babes and Dudes, if you're single on Valentine's, then so be it. No one wants to date someone that thinks that they're destinied to be alone. It's like you've shut off everyone else from your life, before anyone has even tried to enter it.

Goodnight people, I hope that you've gotten something out of this.

Believe To Achieve.

Love,
Natalie Ishot


To my future boyfriend.

Hi.
I'm someone that gets jealous easily, I'm someone whose very sensitive. At times, I think a lot , and I need reasurance. Whenever I'm sad, I just want you to hold me close, and I'll know that, everything's gonna be okay. Even if the reason of my sadness is you, just hold me tight, and I'll know that everything's gonna turn out fine. When I'm happy, I'd share my happiness with you, and I hope that, when you're happy, you'll share it with me too. When I'm angry, please understand that it's when I'm most vulnerable, and whatever I've said, was never meant to hurt you. I'd never want to hurt someone I love so much. I promise to love you and you only, when I've become yours. No one else will ever come into the picture. We'll have so many memories to remember, we'll have so much time together, we'll have so much love to share. Even if we don't last forever, please remember that we were once part of each other's lives, and that we were never a mistake. Don't ever look back to regret us, because the love we had, will always be one of a kind.

With Love,
Your future girlfriend




You can count on me, like 1 2 3.

Hello to 1:28AM.

Today, was a B.E.A.U.tiful day. Met Zhiya, Nerice, Teng Wei, Jaryl, Jeremy, Bryan Ong and Bryan Lee.

We went to plan LAN first, as the pool tables at Depot Heights were fully booked. So, We travelled to JCube @ Plaza Sing. Helped Teng Wei and Nerice on their wedding in AuditionSEA, I think they played as if the whole LAN belonged to us, as they were screaming and shouting. Congrats on the wedding anyway! (:

After LAN, we then persuaded the boys to take neoprints with us. Teng Wei's poses are forever etched into my mind, for real.

We changed the pool game location to Parklane after that, as stupid Depot Heights That Tables Are Fully Booked never call us back.

We then settled dinner at Astons', Cathay!

Thanks guys, for today. It'd be remembered. <3 data-blogger-escaped-br="br">

Reached home at about 11, had a small chat with him on the phone, and then I proceeded for my LoveParty on AuditionSEA. Thanks ChengXuan, for logging in so late, just so we could LP!

So here I am now, blogging. JiaHui fell asleep while texting me, AGAIN! That boy, I don't know what he does, but I hope he's taking care of himself.

Well, Valentine's Day is coming. Last Valentine's day, someone I loved dearly surprised me with 3 roses at my doorstep, followed by a 10 minute long hug. That person's gone from my life now, though, gone for good. Those roses, I kept them in my room, even as days went by, even as they started to wither. I kept them, even when you fell for someone else, even when we started having so many fights, even when we started drifting apart, even when we finally ended. I kept them till today. And today, would be the day where I'm throwing them away.



See those petals? They've dried up, they've turned dark. Just like how our relationship turned out to be.

Ive long got over you, I've long moved on from our realtionship. But letting go of memories, they're a different thing. They're not memories that I'm going to keep with me anymore, it's simply not worth my time.

For this Valentine's Day, whether I'm spending it alone or not, it's still gonna be extra special.



And I know, that things are just gonna turn out so damn well.

Make me yours already.

Love,
Natalie Ishot




My thoughts you can't decode.

Hello earthlings, I just got back home from supper. Had Cinammon Melts and Caramel Frappe @ Macs, sinful much.

Work was terrible today, it was busy to the extend where I didn't have time to text.

To add on to it, I was just feeling so damn pissed at a point.



Felt like she was stepping all over my head, just because I'm being nice. Oh well.

Anyway, tomorrow I'm meeting Nerice and friends at Depot Heights for pool. It'd be my third ever game of pool. I'm lookng forward to tomorrow, not because of the outing, but because I'll be seeing people that matter to me in my life. <3 data-blogger-escaped-br="br">

Speaking of him, let me do a little introduction.

I feel like doing a cover for Decode by Paramore, but I just don't have the right mood to do so now. Plus working in the Crepe shop kills my voice, I've been eating too much rubbish.

Speaking of work, I've got new burns -_- And one of them is like 2cm long, shit. My right hand's pretty screwed up, I gotta take much more care.

OH. And my ex tuition teacher Mr Peng, he just randomly sent me a text not long ago. Which reminds me of the long overdue Sec4 textbook I'm supposed to 'lend' him. Probably won't ever get it back. Plus we're supposed to go catch a movie, need to find a time for that too!

Anyway, #10thingsaboutmyself trended on twitter today.

So here goes,


1- I let myself get hurt, way too easily.

2- When I make decisions, I make sure that they're rational. It would never be a rash one.

3- Like it or not, I have more guy friends than girlfriends. It's who I am, and who I will always be.

4- I love kids.

5- It's not easy for me to hold someone close to my heart. I've been hurt countless times, that I've became cautious.

6- I don't go for looks in a person, life has thought me that not all beautiful things, are beautiful inside as well.

7- When I fall in love, I fall hard.

8- When I say leave me alone, I mean it. It's a time where I need to sit down, and think through things alone.

9- I have many friends, but it takes one hell of a person to be genuinely close to me.

10- I can be insensitive at times, and when that happens, it hurts the other party a lot.


Done.

Thank you to twitter, for finally having a meaningful trend, instead of something stupid like Naomi Neo. For god's sake, she's just an innocent girl. Stop judging her.

But then again, everyone judges. So do I. People just keep judging for the wrong reasons.

It's getting late, and it's time to turn in now.

Goodnight, world.

Love,
Natalie Ishot




Happiness is only happiness when it's shared.

Hello to 1:32AM in the morning,

This is Natalie Lim blogging in the night.

Well, today's been an pretty good day, it just feels so great. To start things off, I've finally had a proper rest, from 2AM all the way to 12PM. It's only 8hours, but I've been getting lesser than 6hours for these few weeks, so I reckoned its a rest for my body. Although, I think my eyebags are still there.

And today, I'd like to talk about my girlfriend of all time, Nerice.

'Shit, I wish I was with you now, I don't want anyone to replace me in your life.'



I don't ever want her to forget about me, and I think she simply has no idea of how much she means to me. These four years of my life in secondary school, would just be plain dull, plain harsh, if she wasn't there. She's someone I want forever in my life, she's someone I love. Babe, I love you. Don't forget about me, because I'll never forget about you.

Anyway, I'm meeting her on Sunday, and after I had my dinner, I received another random call from her. Told her I had important things to update her about, about a senior from our school, and how I.. OH WELL, she knows, I know.

Called her up the moment I got home, and we talked all the way till 12plus. (:

Hi Nerice, I wish that you weren't tired, I wish that you'd talk to me till dawn breaks, but you're just so drained from today, and I can't be selfish, So i'm gonna let you go back to sleep, see you on sunday.

And yes, refer to the picture right at the top of this page, I'm kinda in love.

And yes, it's late, I have work tomorrow, and tomorrow's gonna be uber busy as there's this promotion coupon thing going on. Ohmygod, did I just say Uber? Yes I did.

It's time to sign off, turn of this lappy, and go to sleep.

Be prepared for tomorrow babe, it's gonna be one hell of a day.

Love,
Natalie Ishot




Nothing Ever Goes Right.

I'm currently back from work, home, with hot, angry tears streaming down my face.

I don't understand.

Why do you always have to judge what I'm doing, question what I'm doing, and then disapprove of it? Why are you always making decisions for me, when I clearly know what I'm doing? Why must everything I do be bad?

Firstly, it was the choosing of poly or JC. I knew what course I wanted to go to, I knew what I wanted, and poly was the way for me. When I told you about it, then what did you say?

"Why poly? Why not JC? All your cousins are in JC. Why must you go for Poly instead?"

And you nag, and nag, and nag about it through the whole year, through O levels. Fine, I grin and bear it.

Next, comes the choice of courses. I wanted to do Early Childhood Education so much, and when you came to know about it, you discouraged me, saying that the pay for future jobs are low, and that the field to play with is very small. Teachers earn very little. The environment is bad. Your relatives are all bankers, they work with money. Why don't you choose something else instead? Why Early Childhood?

Yea yea yea, I get it, dad. Early Childhood sucks. It sucks soooo much, that when relatives ask me what course I wanna take, you wouldn't even answer them, you'd just shake your head and tell them to ask me instead.

Thanks. For the support.

And now? Now what? I can't get into early childhood. My application failed. I got posted into something that I had interest in, but not wanna do for the rest of my life. So I apppealed out for New Media, with RP with my first choice.

With New Media, I'd be able to shift my projects into things like community awareness, social services, children, everything and anything to add into my portfolio. It's also something that I'm interested in. It's just a longer route to getting what I want.

And again, the story just doesn't end here. Say what? New Media is an empty course that teaches rubbish. RP is a lousy polytechnic. Relatives say RP is not good. New Media is not gonna get you anywhere in life. RP got a lot of malays.

WHAT, the actual fuck.

No wait, let me repeat again.

WHAT, the actual, actual fuck?

I don't understand of why you're never supportive of whatever I do. And everything I do has to be related to my relatives. Everything I do, you must have a say in it. Sure, you're my father. I respect that. But this is my ife. I don't wanna be a robot, and earn lots of money, but hate what I'm doing.

Okay, I admit, I don't like to study, I was never the studying type, I did not get good grades, I got a freakin 17 for L1B4, 22 for L1R5. I didn't do as well as my cousins, It's not something to be proud of.

But I can say, that I've tried my best. Staying back in school for hours, just to get a few questions right. Doing milions of exam papers. Going to the library during the weekends just to revise. Finding different people to teach me on subjects and topics that I'm unclear on. For months.

I hate revisng. I hate studying. But, just, just to make you proud. I did all these. I didn't want to let you down.

But what?

Yea, I never try my best, I'm damn lazy, I'm not even trying.

Sometimes, I wonder on why do I even bother to try.

I'm so sorry that I'm not smart like your relative's children. I'm so sorry for not showing interest in whatever that you'd like me to do. I'm so sorry for ust trying to do what I show passion in. I'm so sorry, that I'll never be what you want me to be.

I'm already disappointed enough, for the fact I didn't make it into Early Childhood Education. Why can't you just respect the decisions that i've made? I know what I'm doing. I honestly do.

It's currently 11:58PM.

I'm terribly heartbroken.

Doubt I'll be able to sleep tonight.

Goodnight world.

Love,
Natalie Ishot


Hello,

I'm gonna be late for work soon. Well, not really, but I promised Kenneth that I'll be coming early. Oops.

This is gonna be a really short post, so I'm going to get to the point.

Xe, WHEN ARE YOU COMING BACK DUDE. COME BACK SOONNNNN.

ChengXuan, Im sorry that my working time sucks so badly, I'll try to come online when I can.

Besties, I miss you guys. Meet up soon!

Anddddddd,

It's time to flip crepes like a pro now.

Ciaosu!

Love,
Natalie Ishot

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