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Tuesday, February 21, 2012 12:25 AM

LIAR.

So, it's 12:44AM and I'm having cramps. Again.

Anyway, I can't sleep, so I might as well blog today.

I went to Westmall today, and bought ingredients needed to bake my cookies.

Yes. I baked. Today. After 3 months.

Total cost of the ingredients was $25, costly much. Tsk. But it was worth it, the cookies turned out awesome, <3 data-blogger-escaped-.="." data-blogger-escaped-br="br">
Was stuck in the kitchen for 3-4 hours, and just in case you're curious, I made Raisin oatmeal cookies, with hazelnuts.

I know right. You're drooling already. Haha! (: Made 5 batches, 70 over cookies. I'm so drained.

That's all for today!

let's move on to the next topic.

Lies

If you haven't told a lie ever since you were born, you're probably not normal, or you're lying. Everyone lies. I tell lies too.

We lie for many reasons. But whatever the reason, a lie always hurts. Mmhmm, you heard me. Even the most innocent of lies, the white lies, they hurt.

Those lies, they might be beneficial to you, and they might help you to achieve what you want. But once they've been discovered, the person you've lied to would hurt the most. All the trust they had in you, crushed, in those few seconds. And I'm telling you, it aint easy to gain that trust back.

But you know what? I think, that the most disappointing lies of all, are lies that you tell yourself. And I'm guilty of that.

Sometimes, things go so wrong, but I'd still press on, and convince myself that I can head on. But no. I can't. I'd fake a smile, I'd say I'm okay when I'm not, I'd deny that I'm having a bad day. But deep down inside, in my mind, I struggle so much, and it kills.

People come to me when they have problems, or when they need a listening ear. I'm expected to help them because I can, I'll be there for them because I know that they need me. But wait, Who then, am I supposed to turn to when I need someone?

I've got my own set of problems too, I've got my own set of worries. And the thing about me is, I always think that I am strong enough to handle everything by myself, when I'm clearly not. And when I reach breaking point, I literally shatter.

Natalie, you're not supergirl. You're a bloody human. Stop lying to yourself, and stop pretending that everything's okay when it's not.

Take a break from everything else, you need it.