Thursday, April 26, 2012 9:51 PM
Something's wrong.
Well, today's RJ was definitely an interesting one. I thought that I should share it with you guys. Other than that, today was a pretty normal day, filled with cam-whores with my new found clique.
Write a brief introduction of yourself based on either a talent, an ambition or a fear that you have.
‘Name me one of your fears.’ Many often answer this question with answers like insects, heights, ghosts, or death. Well, I am a girl who is barely afraid of anything. I’m not afraid of public speaking, ghosts, or any insects. For me, my greatest fear would be nothing of that sort. My greatest fear would be losing someone I love.
Losing someone you love does not necessarily mean that the person has died. It could simply be someone changing into another person that you never thought that they would change in to, or someone you love leaving you for something else. They could family members or friends.
I am a person that thinks a lot. Whenever I lose someone I love, I would get frustrated over it, and think of the many possible reasons that could have resulted in such a thing to happen. There is a saying that goes “What hurts the most was being so close.” This saying makes a lot of sense to me. I fear losing someone because there was a period of time that you really loved that person and that person mattered to you. You care for them, you worry for them, and when they make that 360 degrees change in character, you get lost. Suddenly, they feel alien, they feel cold, they feel out of reach, and you feel hurt. The more you love that person, the more hurt you feel. It is like all the memories that you have created with them suddenly turns worthless, because that person does not bother about you anymore. Understanding that person becomes a difficult job and one day, you are forced to move on without them in your life because in the first place, they have already given you up.
I am a person that values relationships a lot. When I love someone, I love them wholeheartedly. That is why I am so afraid losing them, because I know that it would hurt. I personally feel that losing someone because they have changed hurts more than losing someone because they have died. When someone changes, they still live and exist somewhere in the world. They constantly remind you of how close you once were with them and yet, you are unable to be with or salvage your relationship with them anymore. While when someone dies, they only exist in your heart, and you know that they died loving you.
I am Natalie, and my fear is losing someone that I love.
