Thursday, June 14, 2012 8:55 AM
I want you here, now.
Good morning earthlings. (:
So yesterday, I made boyfriend upset. I'm not going to go into details about what happened, but I sure felt lousy as hell. After programmes, as we went home, my heart felt really heavy.
I gripped your hand extra tight, with a voice in my head screaming "I love you."
As we sat in the cab, side by side, boyfriend started talking to me really gently. As much as he tried to sound okay and all, I knew that he was hurt. All I could do was lean against his shoulder, and hope that I could take his pain all away. I couldn't speak much, except for a little nods here and there, as my tears threatened to flow down my cheeks.
He sent me home, as always. We sat on the stairs for a litte while, and we had a heart to heart talk. All the while, he didn't say a word, and all he did was just listen. When all that I needed to say was said, he then hugged me and told me,
"Everyone makes mistakes. Love is not about finding the perfect person, but knowing their imperfections, and loving them anyway."
I'll never, ever, forget what he said.
And then, it dawned on me, of how this relationship was just so special.
Of how we decided to talk our problems out, instead of quarrelling.
Of how I chose to apologize, instead of throwing a tantrum and causihng a huge mess.
It takes a lot of humility for two people to sit down, and wholeheartedly talk about what's wrong between both of them.
It was the first obstacle that we have faced, and in the future, there would definitely be some more.
But, all I know is that, everything's gonna be fine. Because we're gonna go through everything together.
I love you Hans. I really really do. And I really appreciate the heart to heart talk that we had. And I just want you to know, that I'll never let you go.
A relationship will always have obstacles. It's either you find a way to talk it out, run away from it, or simply decide to yell at each other and blame each other for it. And every individual way would decide on how your relationship would turn out in the end.
And I feel extra happy today, because I woke up feeling so loveddd. (:
Whenever we say goodbye, I wish that we had one more kiss.
Love,
Natalie Ishot
