Friday, July 20, 2012 12:53 PM
No one can pull the trigger if you don't hand them the gun.
Good afternoon earthlings!
Today I'm having programming as my module and... I'M DONEEEE.
I'm ready to simply fly out of school now.
But that would affect my grades.
So...
No.
Anyway, my GPA is currently at 3.2! It's good, but needless to say, it can be much better. Gotta work on my programming to pull it up.
And,
I haven't really been feeling fine these days. My family's a wreck.
All of my smiles feel very halfhearted.
I really hate accusations. I really hate lies.
I feel absolutely alone at home now. It's like, I come home just to use the utilities and sleep.
I'm tired of helping others when all they seem to do about it is, well, forget what I do. And when we get into an argument, I'm accused of being unappreciative.
Really, hun. It doesn't get any better than this.
And hence goes the saying,
No one can pull the trigger if you don't hand them the gun.
Maybe, I've been helping out too much. Or in fact, that's really the situation now, isn't it?
I've been there for people like forever. That I've been taken for granted.
It's time to step back, and let things happen. Maybe, that's the only way for her to realise that life, isn't really a bed of roses after all.
I hate what's happening. I really do.
And it's just terrifying to see how one of your family members can turn out so ugly inside. I see nothing but vile.
So much selfishness, so much lies.
It's like opening a jar of honey, only to see a whole lot of ants crawling out of it.
To make everything even more hilarious, no one else bothers to correct her mistake, and in fact, they support her.
But I've really gotten use to this. What else can I do? Sit around and mop over this shit?
I really don't know of what you're gonna turn out to be like in the future, but I sure don't like the thought of it.
Stop being what society wants you to be. We're humans. You don't have to listen to what your friends wants you to do. You don't have to win all the time. You don't have to search for compliments just to feel fucking secure.
Sometimes. I do blame myself. I care too much. I've realised that I can never ever be there for you forever.
It's time for me to walk away.
You're on your own now hun.
RJ has been released, I shall do it now and then I'll be heading on to Causeway Point with XJ, Qi YIng and boyfriend for a movieeee.
Catch you later guys!
Love,
Natalie Ishot
