Sunday, August 26, 2012 11:18 PM
Oh really? Please tell me more.
Hello earthlings. (:
I've finally
dyed my hair, and I'm pretty satisfied with it, except for the teeny bit of uneven-ish at the back.
I know I promised a review, and it'd come up in the next post. (:
The start of UT3 is tomorrow, and honestly, I still don't feel any urgency for it. I studied for half an hour, and I just couldn't concentrate anymore.
#Firstworldproblems.
But I just don't get it. I wonder where did the drive of working hard went to. I'd really like to find out. My grades aren't slipping, and I'm still doing pretty well in school, but this attitude is not going to get me anywhere.
And today, there was something in my mind to ponder about.
I was reading my previous posts, when I came across the uber long story that I've written for my Art Of Story Module.
Then I remembered of what my facilitator said during class.
"We're all damaged goods."
This sentence didn't really make sense to me until today.
I'm not only talking about perfection, I'm talking about how we would always go through something in life that would change or affect us in a certain way.
In some way, we've all been hurt.
When we talk about damaged goods, we're referring to something about us that can never be changed.
Well, I wouldn't exactly say that there's something wrong with us, but I do ask myself that question for many times before.
Like how I react to certain situations so harshly, and how I want my own space so badly. I hate it when people invade my personal space and try to get control over it. I flare up so easily when it comes to that topic.
And that's only because I didn't get the freedom that normal teenagers had when I was in secondary school.
Life is funny.
My friends would die to get a ride home from school, while I, sat at the backseat of the car, and wished that I could take the bus home.
That's why they always say,
"You always want what you can't have."
My friends would be going out after school, while I, would have to sit at home to face the walls.
I'm not asking for lots of freedom. Sometimes, I just want some time alone, in the bus, to think about the things that I need to think about.
Outings with my friends were rare.
I didn't get to have that freedom until it was after my 'O' levels.
Now things are pretty much better, and honestly, I'm grateful for that. But of course, whatever that has happened, obviously impacted me a lot.
So, we're all damaged goods huh?
I guess, that's what life is about.
Spending your entire life trying to find of how to live with it, or to make you feel better again.
Things in the past can never be changed, but your future is still ahead of you,
and you,
Can Decide On What Path To Take.
And that's all for today, with an update that's coming up in my couple blog soon. (:
Love,
Natalie Ishot
