Tuesday, October 30, 2012 11:07 PM
I remember the rights that I did wrong.
Finally, an update.
I've definitely let my lazy bones get the better of me this time. I was getting afraid of my blog disappearing into thin air.
Things haven't been very good lately, and I'm having a lot in my mind right now.
There's this saying that goes,
"If you repeat the same mistake twice, it's not a mistake anymore. It's a choice."
It's pretty true, isn't it?
If you had already known its consequences, if you had already known of what would come to you, then wouldn't it be silly for you to commit the same mistake again for no reason?
Every mistake has its reason. No mistake is made twice, not when we're smart enough to stay away from trouble.
Then comes the question, what's the reason for committing the same mistake again?
Was it a cry for attention? Or was it a mistake that you felt was right to do? Or was it simply a lesson that
wasn't etched into your mind to begin with?
I don't know about you, but I know that
I hate pretending. I do what I deem best, and I absolutely hate people doubting me. Not when I've done my best. I'm not going to hide behind smiles and pretend that everything's okay when it's not.
I especially hate it when people bring up my past mistakes to try to hurt me. What's the purpose in that? If I'm supposed to move on and not repeat the same mistake twice, then why the hell are you using the same mistake to pull me down again?
Sometimes people don't make sense.
They say one thing and they do another. It's like how promises are made and so easily broken.
So many things mean
nothing now.
But then it comes down to only one point at the end of the day.
You live for yourself.
Solely, yourself.
Sure enough, your parents brought you up, and you appreciate them for that, but that's as far as it goes. If it's your dreams and your goals, then they have no say in it, much less others, because that's what you want to do. It's what you need to do. Not them.
When you make mistakes, you pick yourself up and you learn from them. You don't lurch in the past and live to put yourself in the shit you've caused. Your mistakes, your learning.
Whatever you choose to do will always have a consequence, and its up to you to face it.
You're in your own hands.
And with that, I'm going to turn in.
I'd like to say a very special thank you to my boyfriend, for always being there for me. At times I'd look at us, and I'd ask myself,
"Why me? Why this pyscho-problematic girl, why not others, why me?"
I'm not exactly the easiest to handle, and I really appreciate all that he has done for me.
Our seventh monthsary had just passed not long ago, and I'm just really proud to have him. (:
I love you baby.
Till then, folks.
Love,
Natalie Ishot
Thursday, October 25, 2012 12:34 AM
Hello beautifuls.
I'm back!
Well, I know that I promised a tutorial, but it seems like there's no need to do it anymore. In addition, due to the weather, my hair's getting drier. Just yesterday, I got my hair trimmed. It feels way better now!
No more dyes for now. (:
And. There're many pictures from Goldcoast, but I am absolutely too lazy to upload them. I guess they'll have to wait, I'm so sorry for the delay!
Anyway, just 25 minutes ago, it was our 7th Monthsary. Time really flies when you're spending it with someone you love.
Thank you for the treat darling, I really appreciate it.
There's no one else I'd rather be with than you. You're everything. I've told you that the day before, today, and I'd tell you this for the rest of my life.
I love you.
Of course, school has started. My classmates are a bunch of interesting people, and I'm honestly very curious about them. I hope that its gonna be a great semester ahead, although I've already gotten 2 Xs due to my absence on the first day of school. (':
Well, till then folks!
Love,
Natalie Ishot
Thursday, October 4, 2012 3:05 PM
A maze that's never ending.
Hello earthlings.
Do pardon me for my monotonous like post as I'm feeling pretty awful now.
First of all, I'm not going to do the Apricot Directions Tutorial anymore, because the colour doesn't show on my hair at all.
Boyfriend suggested for me to bleach a part of my hair, but I'm still feeling pretty cautious about it.
Boyfriend.
Decided to redo Red Pillarbox Directions Dye instead, I like the colour anyway.
Sooo,
My flight's at 1045PM later on, and I'm leaving my house at 6PM.
Won't be able to text him till tomorrow.
Shit much.
I'm behaving and talking like a brat now because I feel awful.
I'm sorry.
I'm just not used to being all alone and empty.
I just miss him, so, so, much.
When we bidd goodbye yesterday, I cried like a baby.
Me no like crying because it makes me look like a frog.
I'm really tired too, because I can't sleep.
Goldcoast is definitely gonna be fun, but I just wish that time would pass faster, as I won't be back till the 12th October.
Well.
That's all hunnies.
Love,
Natalie Ishot
Tuesday, October 2, 2012 11:36 PM
The day you left, was just my beginning.
Hello lovelies! (:
There I am, in my I LOVE BALI shirt! It's a gift from my boyfriend, but apparently, even its size S is too big for me (': So it becomes a sleeping shirt.
ANYWAY, today was quite a day.
I mean, who hasn't heard about iPhone 5?
You see, my boyfriend is
absolutely mad about Apple products, and because of him, we travelled all the way to town for 5 Singtel stores just to hunt down a 16GB iPhone 5.
I was dead tired, and you know what? I'm not exactly an apple user. I
love androids! I have the Itouch 4, but that was a gift from last year.
And did I mention, that my Xperia Arc S has the same length as the iPhone 5?
You know, I don't understand the iPhone 5. Other than it being larger, what else has it improved on?
Actual conversation between my boyfriend and I.
Me: So, what's the improvement made in iPhone 5, besides it being larger?
Boyfriend: Well, its faster.
Me: That's it?
Arggg, I don't understand this Apple thing.
I eat apples, I don't use them.
Anyway, it was still a fun day out, because I get to spend time with him.
We had a
tiny lil' fight in the morning, but it was all settled after awhile.
I love you darling.
I'm honestly a bit moody these days, because the 4th of October is drawing so near, and I wouldn't be able to see him for a week.
Well, I got my results though.
It's a GPA of 3.1, and I'm pretty happy for getting a Distinction! (:
Well done Natalie, *pats my own head*.
I don't know, I don't really like the idea of not being able to see him.
I'm just gonna miss you so bad, so, so, bad.
Le' sigh.
I'm not trying to sound like a love-sick idiot over here, but this would be the first time that we'd be spending time away from each other for so long.
He'll be going overseas too, to Hong Kong till the 8th.
I mean, what if he gets kidnapped!
Okay, that's just ridiculous, but I think that some of you would understand of how I'm actually feeling.
I'd be dye-ing my hair tomorrow on the side note, I'm really looking forward to it! (:
Goodnight guys!
Love,
Natalie Ishot
