Friday, November 30, 2012 10:20 PM
You and I hold the colours to my heart.
Hello earthlings.
I think that this picture pretty much describes me now.
I feel really empty inside, and so terribly moody.
You would think that the best caption for this picture would be "#ootd", but to be honest, I think #ootd sounds really ridiculous.
So there's
no captions for this.
Boyfriend's gone to Indo again, it probably explains the most of my feelings right now.
It's one thing to laugh like a crazy ass person in front of your friends, and another to go home and realize that,
"Damn. He's not here."
And today's Drawing was absolutely draining. It feels like whenever I hold a pencil, the pencil goes alive and all the energy gets drained out of me.
Thank goodness I've recovered from that horrid stomach flu.
So today, I went home alone.
And it's times like these that sets me thinking about so many things, from conversations to certain actions, then certain memories.
And I'm just really bothered by how close someone can be to you, and at the next moment, they
hate you to bits.
I know that all these are part and parcels of life. But still, these are a great deal to those that are affected by it. I mean like.
You do get hurt, right?
Today I saw pain in someone's eyes, and I saw a part of me in the past, right there.
Those moments where it hurts to even breathe, and whenever you see that someone you've lost, you just get so angry, and yet so sad at the same time.
Feelings. They're funny little things. And yet, we cannot live without them.
Even with hurt, it'd be impossible to heal again without the help of the other happy feelings.
Even if you're trying to hide your sadness behind your smiles, someday, your smile will become real again.
Because the world is still filled with happiness and hope.
And that's simply the world's job.
To
screw you over and then
pick you up again.
It's gonna take a lot of courage to move on. But this is your journey.
You either
make it or
break it.
Love,
Natalie Ishot
Wednesday, November 28, 2012 11:13 AM
I don't like it. I don't like it when I can't eat.
Hello world.
It's 10:35AM today and I am not in school.
No, I am not being a lazy ass girl. (':
But you see, my body has contracted that little something called
Stomach Flu.
Believe it or not, I still woke up @
5:30AM to try to get ready for school, but then my tummy cringed and it shouted,
And I was like.
Urgg. In addition, I have UT today. Why tummy why? (':
Boyfriend says that I probably contracted it from him.
That's a
naughty ass flu bug we're dealing with!
But before I go on complaining, Have I mentioned that my boyfriend has released his
new mix?
It consists of songs from the Top 40's, and I'm not going to be biased, but I think that his mix sounds damn great!
For those that are interested in listening to his new mix, I've provided the link over here!
Top40s Vol #1
Please support him on his SoundCloud, here's his
profile, along with the other mixes he has created!
Thank you! (:
Andddd, back to my tummy.
It feels absolutely horrible to have your tummy cringing every 5 minutes. When there's nothing, there's nothing, but when it starts hurting..
Damn, it's like fucking Aliens VS Predators! (You do remember that I'm
in love with them, right?)
But ANYWAY, IT'S LIKE THEY'RE GONNA BURST THROUGH MY TUMMY.
(':
Gaaah.
Plus, the doctor says that I can't eat anything
spicy,
oily, or
dairy.
THAT'S LIKE EVERYTHING!
But I don't think that I should complain so much anymore.
At least. At the very least, an alien isn't gonna burst out of my tummy.
I hope.
But if it does,
IT MEANS THAT I'M AN ALIEN MUMMYYYYY.
Okay. Fine.
Enough of my complains, and back to topic.
Wait, what topic?
Well, I've recently caught the films
'Rise Of The Guardians' and
'Frankenweenie'!
Besides being a fan of horror movies, I absolutely love animation films, especially if they're from Disney!
But no. I don't like
Princess-y movies, so it's a no thanks to movies like Princess And The Frog, Sleeping Beauty or Enchanted.
Rise Of The Guardian was a 4/5! It's a beautiful plot with its sad and touching moments, and the characters are really quirky in their own ways. But it
wasn't able to move me to tears. Hehe. What I love most about Disney Movies are that they always have a hidden moral in their story. I'm not going to spoil this for you guys, so just go catch it!
As for Frankenweenie, I've been aching to watch it ever since its trailer was out! It's created by my
favourite Tim Burton! The creator of Corpse Bride.
*Insert evil laugh*
That means that yes. This film is not exactly appropriate for kids that are in love with their puppies as it is
not going to be a very kiddy content show. It's pretty freaky.
And in case you were wondering if the entire movie is actually black and white.
It is.
It can seem pretty much of a put off at first, but the movie is still worth watching.
I cried. (':
STOP LAUGHING. I JUST HAVE THIS SOFT SPOT FOR DOGS AND CATS AND HORSES AND HAMSTERS AND ALL OKAY.
It doesn't help at all when you lean against your boyfriend in hope for him to comfort you, and he takes one look at you and smirks.
"You're crying? HAHAHA."
Overall, it's a 3.5/5 movie. The 1.5 is gone due to the somewhat weak plot. Again, I am not going to spoil this for you.
Instead, I shall end off this post with a terribly random and overdue picture I took from GoldCoast!
KANGAROOOOOOOOOS!
With love,
Natalie Ishot
Saturday, November 24, 2012 11:42 AM
Cause you love him so much, it makes you go insane.
Hello Earthlingsss!
I'm back from the depths of laziness.
Finally, a blog update aye?
Well, It's that time of the month again! The
24th!
And that means,
Happy 8th Monthsary babyboy!
We'll be going out @ 2PM, and I'm pretty sure that today's gonna be a blast. (:
I just think that it's so damn crazy when you're this in
love with someone.
I mean like,
Really. He could go on about the same thing for hours, but I'd still be there. Listening.
And whenever it's time for us to say goodbye, I'd always want another hug.
I just really really really love him, and I'm so glad that he's in my life. (:
I even made a tiny presentation for him with
Prezi!
Prezi's an amazing media tool I've got to know through my modules, and it brings creativity in presentations to a whole new level! In addition, it is really easy to use once you've gotten the hang of it, and there's just too many templates that you can play around with!
If you're interested in having a look at my Prezi, please check it out
here!
Happy 8th Monthsary again, darling. (:
ANYWAY,
Guess what I've been up to this month?
Right. How in the world are you guys supposed to know?
*Facepalms*
But here we go!
Number 1.
Empower U @ Mindchamps
There's Empower U again! I'm just really happy to be able to attend this program, and to help change the lives of so many participants. Every time I see the growth and change in them, I feel like I'm seeing a part of myself in them, the me 2 years ago.
Number 2.
GAMING
There I go again. I never fail to stop my gaming obsession. But for this time, I've taken gaming to a whole new level, from a totally different perspective.
What game is it now Nat?
...
No. I am not.
I actually find joy in waiting for my dishes to finish, and sending lots of request just to get my cooking stations built.
But don't worry guys. I'm not in the clique of '
SPAM EVERYONE WITH THEM' FUCKING GAME REQUESTS!'
Simply because I find that really
irritating, and I know how it feels to have
1 notification, thinking that you're on someone's mind, when all it ends up to be is a damn game request.
I actually do thorough thinking when I send those requests okay.
So. Put your axes and bows down. I'm not one of them.
I'm in love with Chefville, and it's gonna take a hell of a game to pull me away from it. Game intros, anyone?
Do email me @ natalie.ishot@hotmail.com , I would love to try out new games!
Habits die hard.
Number 3.
Understanding Tests
Mmhmm. Again. This semester's modules are
10 times harder than the previous, and to be honest, there's just so much practice that is needed to be done! I'm starting to really love my new classmates too. Some of them are really quirky and humorous.
And that means,
That it is legit enough for me, to
annoy the hell out of them.
And that's about it.
The previous week isn't exactly the best week of my entire life, and I've actually encountered some problems. I'm so thankful to be able to stumble across this quote today, and I'd really like to share it with you guys.
So when something bad happens to you, what are you going to choose to do?
Are you going to sit and cry all over it and do nothing?
Or are you going to let it overwhelm you and take over your whole life?
No. Not me. Because of this, I'm going to be stronger. And I'm going to be better. Nothing can bring me down.
Not now, not today, not
ever.
Love,
Natalie ishot
Tuesday, November 6, 2012 10:45 AM
So. What are you?
People change all the time. Don't they? One minute they're this, and the next, they're that.
Change is pretty much inevitable.
All the things that they said they wouldn't be, they became.
And when you're part of their lives, and if you care enough. Just enough.
You'll be part of that change.
Huh? You? Why you?
What does a fish do when it gets caught and put into a tank? It gives up its freedom and adapts to that small tank. What does a dog do if you abandon it? It becomes a stray, it hunts for its own food. It adapts.
And the same goes for some of us. All because that person matters so much to us. We adapt. We're wiling to accept that change and move on with our lives.
But some of them, they don't. They'd rather die. They'd rather not adapt.
That fish you caught from the pond? The next morning, you'd find it floating upside down on the surface of the water. Or in another case, a dead dog by the streets, that had long lost its ability to hunt, and had died of starvation.
Would you consider that as a smart choice?
Well.
It really does depends, doesn't it?
I'm not saying that we're gonna die. What I'm trying to put across is, are you willing to change yourself, and your beliefs, for that one person?
Would such a thing be against your principals? And if it is, are you still going to put yourself through that change?
In return, you might still keep that important person in your life, whether they're your friends, or your parents, or your partner. You might still be happy, you might grow tolerant, or you might, very well lose yourself.
But what is important to you?
Which one weighs more?
For that, I'd leave it to you to answer.
Love,
Natalie Ishot
